But first a log of what happened....
Transfer to DPO9 was normal, taking my medications and resting and relaxing
DPO10 ~ I started Spotting but wasn't worried to much as it's a sign of implantation and it happened last time and that was a BFP. This was also the day that the stress of my Dad breaking his elbow started.
DPO11 ~ More spotting but still wasn't all that concerned as it was like this last time too. Still very stressed and away from home as my Dad was in hospital in Rockhampton with a shattered ulna head (elbow bone)
DPO12 ~ I started POAS (Peeing on a Stick) which was showing no sign of a second line no matter how hard I looked. The Dramas with Dad's arm continued
DPO13 ~ on one POAS I saw a second line and was getting my hopes up just a little. Spotting still so was thinking it hadn't worked. Still having dramas with Dad
DPO14 ~ (Friday before the public holiday) The spotting became more red so I rang my clinic to report the problem. I was told that it was a bit abnormal to be spotting/bleeding on HRT but to keep taking all of my medications not matter what happened over the long weekend and to have my blood test on the Tuesday. Dad finally had his surgery to replace the head of the Ulna with a titanium joint.
DPO16 ~ Still getting BFN on the POAS and the spotting had become heavier and more constant
DPO17 ~ My first day back at work, the spotting became more of a flow and I knew that that was it! It was all over. But as per instructions I remained on all of the medications. But every time I took the medication I had intense cramps OMG!!!!
DPO18 ~ Blood Test Day - I woke up and thought what the hell just one more POAS, you never know I might be lucky enough to get a second line. NOPE!! So I went in for my blood test and then I commenced waiting but the phone. By 2pm I rang my clinic to let them know that I was still waiting on my results, they hadn't come in yet but they would phone me when they did. I waited all day then finally at 6:10pm I get the phone call. I knew it was negative but being told officially that it was crushed my heart all over again.
So this cycle is over and again all I have to show for it is an empty womb, an empty bank account, a broken heart, a cycle that is stronger then 3 HRT tablets (6mg) and 2 Progesterone pesseries (400mg) a day and an AF that is out for revenge!!!
Thursday I will start the pill to give my body a break from all of the hormones, I think I might need it.
Where to from here well I have to decide ............ who knows???
No comments:
Post a Comment